This Hallows Eve I'm planning a sort of "getaway" for myself. My original plan was to stay at home and celebrate the harvest in solitude, until those plans were foiled and I had to relocate.

Now I'm spending this weekend in a vacant house (save for a cat) with little more than a feast, and my art supplies. Ironically, I am severed from my Photoshop, which I admit has become a crutch in my learning to paint/draw, so having to find a place other than home to stay was an accidental savior, as I believe beginning with the pencil and paper, as I always have, will help me reconnect with that long lost side of my artwork.

I have planned for a lovely, one person feast consisting of hand made bread, spaghetti squash, a well cooked meat chunk, and freshly brewed apple cider. I am considering that there may be trick or treaters afoot, but that should be no problem. I would like to return after this weekend with a newly restored foothold on my talents, possibly with some artwork I'm willing to scan and share.

Aside from the pressing matter of my own sanity flying out the window with frustration <over my inability to paint properly>, I must settle down and think about some emotional stressors that have recently come to light. When one is young, such things are often not brought to mind, but as one ages, and bonds are made, the self sacrifice becomes a strangely uncomfortable companion. I wont elaborate, but to say the least, Aleister Crowley's Thoth Tarot Deck is a very perceptive, and ultimately correct set of cards.